You watch me slip away, holding on too hard." That's when you go so far that it's life threatening. and you can't erase the fact that you broke your string of being clean or that you did something stupid while on drugs or alcohol. "All it takes is one and I'm gone and you can't erase the past" all it takes is one pill or one cut, etc. "It goes from good to bad to worst so fast." Is saying how the high feels good, then you feel bad, that you are at your worst place and wish you never did it in the first place.
It could also be asking why the streak of being clean never lasts.
"How come nothing ever last?" Is asking why the high feeling never lasts. "Tell me why does everything that I love get taken away from me?" That everything that I love could be living life without cuts or being in drugs. "All it takes is one and I'm done and a thousand 'till the end" is saying how they can't stop when they start. seeing as one of them had a drug addiction, it's probably about that. I hope in some place in that heart of yours a small piece can be set aside for forgiveness and then bury it and plant a new seed of love for someone one day who deserves it. Gabriel and Satan's Salad you were my confessional and the rest all just let it happen for it is now today. I was a king for a day but he failed you. I now know you were that angel.tge rock you gave me should have been my clue. Too all this angels and demons part of what was a fantastical show on your part to help me see or stop it before hand thank you for trying. Im lucky to even be able to read what I type now because it's all fading so fast. I just didn't stop it because it's best this way. Nobody especially my family should watch the remaking days of the what all the poison that's been given to me via needles or food or cremes. By the way I knew you knew this whole time you allowed my brain eyes skin and bones to deteriorate to what's barely left. And prolonging a life is just not what my angel had plans for so it's goodbye. Lesson? There's nothing anyone can learn from this that can make up for what's been said or done. Trials, mamings, downright brutal human shit worse than what the first pain was I think but that's for the another judge about to be seen now. But better than the torture of what woukd have happened. It means mistakes made family violated substance abuse use, recklessness, and tye what follows is even worse.
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